Some days you just get the blues

In past blogs I have promised, a roller coaster ride. My life, of coarse, is not all down hill coasting. All my life I have had to fight depression and today, depression is winning.

I only hope that what I have to say will help others who fight depression.

I am not a perfect man. Please don't take anything I say to heart before you take it to the Lord, in prayer, first.

If you ask me, depression is a sin, or rather it is a sin not to fight it. Depression does come in many forms, some that can not be fought alone. Most of the time it is not like any other sin, that we fall into, after giving into temptation. Many doctors will tell you that it can only be fixed with drugs. I think that in some cases, that is very true. I'm not talking about those people who because of chemical imbalance, never seem to be happy. I'm talking about people, like myself, who because of the things that happen around them, can go months without smiling.

Please allow me to use myself as an example, so that I can make a few points, that I hope will help others. I have been out of work, for about a month and a half. I really hate being out of work.

Here in Utah we have had some great weather but today and tomorrow, snow.

Because I am not working full time, there is no money to do anything fun.

The list goes on and on, with the many reasons why I should be depressed. Or, should I be? The number one reason I get depressed is because of my pride. Like I said, I'm not a perfect man.

I can tell that I don't like being out of work because of how I look at myself and my self worth, when I am not the provider of the home. Its just a pride thing.

Every reason that I have for feeling low, comes right back to my pride. And that is were depression turns from a problem to a sin. I can come up with a lot more reasons to feel down in the dumps, but the truth is there are infinite reasons to pull myself out of the dumps. If I don't let my pride get in the way, I can see all that my father in Heaven has given me and how much more he is trying to give me, if only I will stop whining.

This blog may have been more for myself there for anyone willing to read it, but if you look real hard, you may just find a little bit of wisdom.

In life, it don't matter what road you go down, there is always clouds. Time for me to go back to looking for the beauty in the clouds and not just that they block the sun. The sun will be out soon enough.